No Title.. 20 Jan 2017 4:09 AM (8 years ago)

Blogging has been very elusive to me of late and yet here I am. Does that statement even mean something? I have no idea hahahah but it does sound cool. Right I am back and hopefully can stay put. I will let this be one of my new year's resolution ....tan tan tan.....drum roll please.... Blog at least once every week. With that said I will take my leave and return when I can hopefully within the week or before the month ends. Wow it really has been ages. I think I need to get back my writing mojo. Oh right I didn't have that before so why am I saying that hmmm oh well I think it is hunger that is muddling my brain with nonsense or is it? Ohhhh I sure do miss writing about whatever comes to my mind and I think I'm gonna do this for a while. Now where is that button that enables me to post this hmmmm... Right found it!! Yup as expected Red lines underneath words still hounds me to this day. I sure missed yah.

I'm Alive!!! 1 Mar 2014 1:39 AM (11 years ago)

She breathes, she moves , she is reborn. Hi all I am happy to say that I will be posting again . I don't know about what yet but I'm sure my mind can come up with things or better yet I will post topics that are relevant to my life right now and those revolve around food, my baby and my family. Stick around folks this blog is up for renovation hahahahah or revamp or reinvention or hmmmm what was I saying? Oh yes the new bloggie of mine. Yeah yeah you wavy red thing you under a word, I know it's not an acceptable word but it does sound cute and I like it. I will talk more on Monday after I help with a catering so watch out people because I'll be bigger than ever and I don't mean my size well I am big but it's not what I am saying.. Jezzz better not explain and I let you be the judge.

Graduation over! 24 Jun 2011 12:58 PM (13 years ago)

My culinary graduation was held last June 22,2011 and that was a blast. My mom and stepdad and of course my baby girl Alyssa was with me on this joyous occasion . My friends and classmates who were on their OJT came over to greet me and be with me too during this event in my life.

I also got 2 awards which was the Student leadership award and the service recognition award and I'm so happy to have graduated. Hopefully I can proceed to the diploma one.

Graduation! 14 Jun 2011 5:12 AM (13 years ago)

June 22 is the big day. You may ask me why. Ok I'm asking why? Well it is the day of my graduation for the completion of my 1 year course in culinary arts. Yipeeee I am done. My dad won't be attending because he said he has an important meeting to attend to. That's ok too since my mom and stepdad will be there with me as well as my friend Gail and my cousin Dominic. I am really excited to graduate and then I will be starting work soon too so I'm really happy. Will have graduation portrait taken soon so will be posting it in the coming days.

Baby was fussing today while I was out my mom told me. I don't know but somehow when I go out she fusses a lot. Hmmm maybe she wanted to go with me? What do you think?

CSI fever! 10 Jun 2011 9:41 PM (13 years ago)

I love CSI show, really really love it. I watch all of it from Las Vegas to Miami to New York. I love all the characters and my all time favorite CSI show is the Las Vegas one. Laurence Fishburne does an awesome job at it that's why it saddens me to know that he is leaving the show. It really won't be the same without him. I loved Grissom the most because he was weird in a genius kinda way but Dr. Raymond is different he brings class and intensity to the show and I would really miss that.

Together Forever! 6 Jun 2011 6:27 AM (13 years ago)

I was browsing through some news here on the web and found one that caught my attention. In my past blogs I wrote about becoming a new mommy. I always thought that when one gets pregnant she becomes connected to her son or daughter in more ways than one. I always used to believe that mother's know best and that is one of the reasons why while I was growing up I rarely go out with friends or anyone without consulting my mom because I believe that if she says no to me then she was just looking out for me you know like preventing me from being in any accidents or bad situations, mother's instinct as we call it and I don't mean to say that this connection only exist between mother and daughter because it does exist between siblings too.

I was so touched when I read about the article between twin brothers who were both priests. People said in the article that they were just simple people who lived simple lives and that they often did everything together. They give a different meaning to the word doing it together and if you want to know what I meant then read the article yourselves. Life is a wonder isn't it?

Angel VS. Devil 5 Jun 2011 4:31 AM (13 years ago)

This blog is still about dreams. I don't know why but while I was pregnant with Baby Alyssa I kept having this weird dreams, the first one being the Tree of Life and now it's all about Angel versus Devil kind.

I dreamed of my guardian angel who happens to be the Prince of the Heavenly Hosts. Yes you got that right he is none other than St. Michael the archangel. I never really thought that he could be my guardian angel. I can't remember all the happenings in the dream but I'm gonna write the things that I do remember.

I saw St. Michael's face in my dream he was very handsome and tall and although I can't stop looking at him he doesn't have this lust after me kind of handsomeness to it. I can't explain it well but I found that I was just so mesmerized by him and yet wasn't lusting after him. And yes he was that handsome. Well on with the story, I remember he said "Your baby is important" I really don't know what he meant when he said that but I just took it as it was. I saw his mortal and angel form and boy he was so big and tall and shiny or should I say glowing.

The next scene was Michael in my family. He seemed to be a member of it and yet it wasn't him. I felt something different. He was very nice and good and saint like even but I just felt something amiss. Then I saw another man this time he wasn't handsome but he was big and strong yet he was gentle and he told me he was Michael. I was really confused since I saw the Michael I talked to within my family circle. He was insistent yet not forceful. He told me that the one with my family is not who he says he is. He then told me something but I don't remember exactly but the gist of it was that false prophet will be sent or will present himself. He told me to trust my instinct and my faith in the Father.

And so the next scene was me with the Michael in my family who was very charismatic and nice that everyone was eating right out of his hands and in this dream my baby already existed I mean she was already born and this being kept or wants to be very close with my daughter. I did pray to the Father for guidance on what I should do? Who should I believe, the one who looks like him in all ways or the other one who looked like a hoodlum?

I pondered and remembered myself praying and then the next scene was me piercing Michael in the heart with a long sword. As I did this I felt relieved yet afraid but then Michael as an Angel appeared again full battle gear. He didn't say anything to me but he looked at me and smiled and I felt that I had his approval and then I woke up with my baby moving in my tummy.

I don't know what to make of this dream but I know I will eventually know.

Tree of life! 25 May 2011 10:56 PM (13 years ago)

I was in a beautiful garden with hundreds of big trees where light was shining out of their trunks, the flowers were very colorful and big and the butterflies flitting to and fro hovering over the pretty flowers. The ambiance was just so peaceful and light that you would want to stay there. There were people there, couples actually facing each tree waiting.... for what?

Then I found myself standing also in front of a big tree where light was shining from it.Then it opened and there came out a beautiful baby girl with the name Alyssa Joy and she was my baby. Yes those couples were waiting for their babies to come out. I don't know how to explain it but the baby was mine, it came from me but somehow it came out of a tree.

That was just one of the dreams I have while I was pregnant with my baby who I named Alyssa Joy because I felt and believe that that was the name she wanted. I searched on the net on what Alyssa means and found out it meant "of noble birth". Isn't that something? I don't know how to interpret dreams but most of the time my dreams have significance in my life as I live day by day.

First Picture! 19 May 2011 7:13 PM (13 years ago)

I was six months pregnant when I learned the sex or gender of my baby. Even earlier than that I wanted to know what my baby would be.I prayed for a girl but if I had a boy I would still love him. Lucky for me God was listening and gave me a baby girl. I went and asked my dad for the money for the ultrasound and he gave it to me so off I went to the diagnostic building near my boarding house. My friends were very excited even more than me which was really funny.

It was really something else to see your baby on screen with the head and arms and hands and feet plus hear the heartbeat. Almost made me cry and realize that whoa there is a tiny human in my tummy growing and that we are link together, she can eat what I eat and drink and feel my emotions too. I made it a point then to be always happy and not worry about stuff because I already heard that emotions can have a very big impact on how your baby is gonna turn out when she comes out.

I also had lots of supports from my parents and my sister melody. Since this is my first baby all I have are questions whether this or that is normal and thanks to my sister who already went through pregnancy and motherhood she answers all my questions and tells me what to ask my OB. I really enjoyed being pregnant. Nobody really tells you not to eat and you all know that eating is one of my passions. The special attention also that my friends and family gave me added to that peace of mind I had while I went through the ordeal of pregnancy.

Standing up for 3 hours,walking to and fro and a tad of running was my daily regime for about 8 months until I finished my 1 year culinary course at PSCA ( Philippine School of Culinary Arts) here in Cebu. My friends always makes me sit down or assume some heavy work plus they feed me constantly so I was in food heaven hahahaahh.

Well back to my baby's picture. While the lady was doing the ultrasound the butt was the first thing I saw hahahah it was a very cute butt. She was in footling breach position but I was told not to worry because she is still gonna move into position as it was still early. She was ultrasound shy, she keeps covering her face with her hands but we did get a semi clear picture and she was smiling. When it came for her biometrics the doctor was a guy and so he teasingly said that the baby was shy because her legs where crossed so he wasn't able to get a good view of the genitals. At first he said that it was 88% girl but eventually he said that it was really a girl and I was like so happy.

35 weeks and 6 days later my baby was born in a normal delivery and that is another story.

2 Lines! 17 May 2011 3:03 AM (13 years ago)

It was the eve of August 27, 2010 at my rented boarding house that 2 Lines made me the happiest woman alive. Yes, you heard me right 2 lines. Who knew right that lines are wonderful things.

Well the story began last August 6, 2010, it was our culinary school's acquaintance party that the big event happened. SEX yes I had sex with my ex boyfriend and weeks after that incident the two lines appeared on the pregnancy test that I took. I didn't expect this at this time of my life but it is a blessing for me because the way I see it my biological clock has been ticking. When I peed on those PT and saw the two line the words that came out where " Oh my God, Oh my God" and I repeated that quite a lot while walking to and fro across my room. I was actually panicking but then I talked to myself and said " Wait. Calm down and sit down" I did sit and then I smiled. Why? Well because I'm gonna have a baby. I love kids so I want to have at least 1 child. I didn't go through the worry crying stage that other unwed mother's do during that time.

I went to the OB myself and had myself checked out. I was told to get some bloodworks and then a urine test to see if there is sugar present since I told her that I have diabetes history in the family. All my test came out normal thank God. She also suggested that I have an ultrasound to know if the pregnancy is in the uterus and not in the tube. Well I went and did that but was fearful because I was pregnant at 6 weeks but there is no baby there so I was told to come back 2 weeks after for fetal viability because the doctor said it could be a blighted ovum. I prayed and prayed that there was a baby and the next time I went I saw my baby for the first time with the heartbeat. It was an awesome feeling. I couldn't explain it.

Now my only problem is how to tell my mom. She wasn't here because at that time my grandfather was hospitalized and she had to be there so it took me about 2 weeks to tell her but i did tell my sister Melody all about my pregnancy. She was disappointed in me at first but I didn't take that against her because that was a normal reaction to have knowing how we were raised as good Catholics and I sort of fell from the tree hahaha. My sister has been supporting me all through out my pregnancy. Anyhow when I told my mom there was a lot of drama involved since there was a lot of crying coz now her baby is having a baby. So there that was the story how those 2 lines affected our lives.

It's been ages! 20 Feb 2011 2:29 AM (14 years ago)

Wow! I can't believe it's been ages since I have written in my blog. In just a few months and it will be a year. It's very very bad for me. Well I hope to change all that and start writing again. I now have a lot to write about since I started studying culinary arts. It's been 9 months since I started to attend and I'm really loving it. I got good grades and I am not tooting my own horn in this lol. I met a lot of new and interesting people who are my friends now. Plus I have additional news too I'm about to become a mommy. Yipeeee! It's very exciting and frightening at the same time. Half the time I don't know what to do or if what I'm feeling is all natural. I guess it all comes out or pre motherhood jitters. I do look forward to meeting my baby soon. I really wish and pray to God that she will be healthy and strong and that I will be able to deal with everything even though I'm going through this as a single mom. Well that's all for today folks. I post new ones in the coming weekend when I can get a hold of a computer.

First School Week! 19 Jun 2010 2:45 AM (14 years ago)

I started my classes last Monday and boy that was interesting. I met my first instructor and he is Chef Hicham a Moroccan decent. He is very strict with attendance but I feel that I will learn a lot from him. He taught the subject The professional Chef . We talked about the different kinds of positions in the kitchen and wow my tongue was truly exercised since all the terms were in french. I like it though because I always dreamed of learning the language. I've been sleeping well in my rented room but I still need to make it more livable. It's hard to be apart from my family but I really want to study culinary so I have to be vigilant in my studies to come. I won't be seeing Chef Hicham for the next couple of weeks until I start my basic culinary or when I start the cooking classes. I look forward to getting my knives with my name carved in it, ohhh it really is very exciting and learning of course the function of each one plus I'm really excited to learn how to make decors out of vegetables. I may have to buy vegetables to practice on but that's getting ahead of myself. I didn't bring any camera with me so I don't have pics of my new school yet. I will keep posting about my progress so watch out for them.

Officially enrolled at the Culinary School! 28 Apr 2010 7:36 PM (14 years ago)

Finally after a long time of waiting for my TOR to be released I got it yesterday but before that there was still a little bit of a mishap. Ok here goes.. When I went there to pick it up as scheduled last april 19 I got there and found out that I still have to pay additional fees for it to be released and guess what? I didn't bring any money with me except for fares and stuff. I was really pissed because it was so hot and I had to go all the way back to minglanilla where it takes me 2 jeepney ride and takes about an hour or so. When I got home I didn't have extra money at all to pay for the TOR hahahahah just my luck so I asked my father to send me some and he couldn't til next week and that was yesterday so finally I got it now and then went to the culinary school and passed everything. Now I have to attend the orientation which is on the 11th of June and the official classes starts on the 14th so now all I have to do is find a room to rent near my school so everything will be set. My cousin will be going with me on this hunt. At least I won't be the only one baking under the extreme heat of the sun whoopeee heheheheh. Well that's it for now folks check out again later for updates. Tata.

TOR Hassle!!!!! 22 Mar 2010 9:41 AM (15 years ago)

I didn't expect getting a copy of ones TOR a big hassle. Hmm maybe because my being an undergraduate is the reason but anyhow its been 3 weeks and now I just found out I won't be able to get it til next month !!!!!! GRRRRRRR. Let me tell you the story. When I graduated highschool I wanted to be a computer expert so I studied in the school nearest me but then I changed my mind and decided to become a teacher and so I went to another school where my mom studied. But I din't finish blah blah blah and blah. So here I am now deciding to take up culinary as I mentioned in my earlier post. Well they needed a copy of my school records and so I went to the latest school I went to. When i got there we argued because I told them that I don't need a transfer credential for my TOR but they insist that since I'm enrolling in another school that that's what I need and I keep thinking I am not enrolling in an academic school its a culinary school for Gods sake but I got tired of arguing and said ok only to find out that my first school didnt forward my original record when it was requested so I had to go there and request it so I can hand carry it back to the other school and guess how long it took 1 week. Imagine that 1 week to just type and have the head sign it. And so like a good girl I just let it pass and all that So when I finally had it , I went back to the other school to handcarry the records and then I found out it will be a month still. I almost passed out well I really didn't but it adds drama don't you think ? heheheheh. Well folks I guess I'll just have to wait it out like a good girl.This really SUCKS!!!!

Culinary School! 12 Mar 2010 9:38 PM (15 years ago)

From my christmas post I mentioned about me and my estranged dad talking again. I liked it because at last i can rest my dragons. I often asked God for help about that and I told Him that if it was time for me to talk to my dad again then He will let it happen and I believe that He has.

I've seen him a couple of times already and he asked me what I wanted to do and I told him that I wanted to study culinary. I found a news paper clipping and showed it to him but he said that he knows someone who was teaching at a culinary school and that school happen to be called Phililppine School of Culinary Arts. And boy is that school expensive. In told my dad that it was too expensive but he said he will take care of it and so I just jumped at the opportunity and I really hope I get in. Right now I am working on the stuff or documents that the school requires and its taking a while. I hope I can accomplish them soon, get in and be called "Chef Chay". Heheheheh that has a nice ring to it don't you think?

New Year. New image 6 Mar 2010 8:27 AM (15 years ago)

I don't know if people can really tell but I have heard talks and comments that I look good. I'm not trying to be conceited or something but I admit I love hearing that. I have lost weight and I surely hope it is showing up...... It is big time. Just yesterday I went back to my old work place and I was basking in their nice comments( I hope they were not just patronizing me) but anyhow almost everyone I saw said I really look sexier. I've looked at pics of myself and I compared them and I myself can feel that my body has changed. Will be posting pics of before and after so you folks and be the judge. By the way I used to weigh 198 lbs and now I weigh 171 lbs. hurray me. I'm good ,I'm good... oh yeah oh yeah (doing the running man) Kah! Kah! and stopping.

Christmas 2009 17 Jan 2010 7:46 AM (15 years ago)

As you all folks know I was out of circulation for a while because I was working almost non-stop but I am back now. I recently resigned from that job and I am spending time with my mom at the moment.I had some very personal reasons why I stopped and I'm not gonna get into that as of now. Right now I want to talk Christmas 2009 hence the title....hmmmm Oh I'm sure you guys noticed it.

It is always wonderful to spend Christmas with the people you love. I thought that we wouldn't be able to celebrate it with much food but God always provided us with the food to celebrate. He sent us angels in the person of our friends from Germany. Thank you guys so much for everything .And do you know what more I saw my dad whom I haven't seen or talk to for more than 10 years. Can you believe that? Is this a start of a reconciliation? maybe, I am hoping it would be so I can really get on with my life. I believe it is high time to let the dragons rest.

The food was wonderful so I really don't have much pics taken because I was busy eating, eating and more eating. Mom prepared everything since I was still working at that time.The food were delish and that's all I could say about that heheheheh. Well folks that was my Christmas how did you spend yours?

Dropping by! 20 Nov 2009 2:15 AM (15 years ago)

Hello. lo .lo. lo.... Hello . lo .lo .lo... Hmmm it must have really been ages since I've been here imagine that? There is an echo here already. I know I have been away because of my work. It took a lot of my time plus I don't have ready access to the net but anyhow I just wanted to let you all know that I am still alive and kicking. One of these days I will be back in the blogging world. I hope my friends won't forget about me. Take care all and see you soon.

What's up with me? 6 Jul 2009 6:11 AM (15 years ago)

Hi guys you must be wondering what's been happening to me and where am I at the moment. Well my work started at the start of the month so I have really been busy with paper works and interviewing and hiring my crew for the pizza place. We aren't officially open yet til the 25th of this month but we have trainings and other things to finalize too. Everytime I come home I am so exhausted that I can barely look at the computer. I really do miss you guys and I miss writing too. I apologize to my loyal droppers that sometimes I couldn't reciprocate the drops. I am trying my best to do my drops in any way I can. Thank you all for your patience and understanding. So hopefully I will be able to write more in the next couple of days when I am not as busy. Take care guys and keep up the good work.

Grieving for an Idol! 25 Jun 2009 10:54 PM (15 years ago)

I was still half asleep when my stepdad came into their room which is where I am camping out at the moment. heheheheh I know I should be ashamed of myself for taking away their privacy but it's the only room with air conditioner and it's really hot. Anyways, he came up to get something when he just casually let it slip out that Michael Jackson is dead. My mom was like "What? ARe you serious?" She didn't really believed him and so did I. It was like in my mind him dying young is quite impossible but the minute I came downstairs I hopped in the computer and there was the confirmation Michael had indeed died of cardiac arrest, at least that was what was said in the article. I was really sad because although he hasn't been active much lately but he is an icon in the music industry and his death is a great blow to the music world. I know that a lot of the fans from all over the world are mourning his death and I am one of them. Goodbye Michael and I hope that you are at peace now.

In another side of the story I wonder what would happen to his children. Would they remain faceless or would their pictures be posted for all to see since I for one haven't seen any of his children. I do hope that they will be ok and that they won't live a sad life.

Happy Father's Day! 21 Jun 2009 12:28 AM (15 years ago)

Today is a very special day because it is a day to celebrate our dads. I would like to extend my warmest and fattest greetings to all the wonderful fathers out there "Happy Happy Father's Day ." I know that I never really had a dad growing up but I am very thankful because I had a lot of surrogates to say thanks to. To my grandfather, uncles and my stepdad thank you for always being there for me and my sister while we were growing up. You are all the best I could have asked for in this world. I thank God for giving me the chance to know you. So what about you guys have you said thanks to your dads?

Night out with my cousins! 17 Jun 2009 6:16 AM (15 years ago)

It was the night of independence day when my cousin Regi the flight attendant recently came home for a vacation and invited me with my other cousins on a night out. We went to Mr. A's which is a nice place located on top of a mountain. You can see the beautiful lights of the city below. The air is cool and nice and the atmosphere is just right. We ordered some cocktails which were vodkatini, mai tai and weng-weng. I had the mai tai, it was really really nice and not so strong but I did taste some of the other drinks they ordered. We talked and talked and we took some pictures. The table was just illuminated with candles so it would be a romantic dinner if I was on a date. Well we stayed there til 12 midnight and until the batteries ran on the camera. It was my first time to that said place and I want to go back there again. Well on with the pictures.

A journey inside my bag! 13 Jun 2009 1:33 AM (15 years ago)

A few days ago as I was going out I just thought I'd share what's always in my bag whenever I go out. It's a small bag given to me by Aunt in the states. It's yellow and you all know that's my favorite color so inspired by the bag raids I saw in SNN. I thought I'd do one of my own. I took a pic of what's all inside the bag but I also took a video. Sorry if the quality isn't great I really didn't think much about it til I was finished. So what about you guys what's in your bags?

Independence Day ! 11 Jun 2009 10:16 PM (15 years ago)

Today is the 12th and it's independence day here in my country. Lots of activities going on both rallies and celebration. Rallies because a lot of people are protesting against the resolution passed in congress about constituent assembly. I've never followed politics and I know should as a good citizen of my country but for the life of me can't understand what is being rallied about. What really is constituent assembly? How bad will it really affect the country? It's good to fight for a cause but it's sad to see that most of the people in the rally don't even know what they are fighting about. A lot of big political figures are using it to gain votes or popularity among the people. I don't know but in my opinion they should be worried about a lot of other things right now like the global recession plus the outbreak in A (H1N1).Although there are not that many cases confirmed here in the Philippines but it's close to a hundred already. It is quite frightening that one could get sick from this. As far as I know thought there hasn't been a death yet because of this virus and I really hope there won't be. It really scares the heck out of me. It makes you feel like a prisoner really because you don't want to leave the house in fear that you might contract this virus. So much for independence huh? This is another kind of prison and I really pray that we will come out of this victorious.

Elaborate Plan! 4 Jun 2009 9:03 PM (15 years ago)

My mom always told me that God has long and elaborate plans. I really believe her since our life is a good example of that. We all used to live in Ormoc City. My mom was married at young age of 15 and she had me at 16. It wasn't a very good life for her or for us at one time because of all the family troubles. So mom practically raised us herself with help from my loving grandparents. Eventually we came to cebu and studied here and it is here that I really grew up. After this I believe that it was all part of God's plan for my family. You might ask me why, well if my parents didn't separate we wouln't have come to cebu and my grandparents wouldn't have followed us here and establish a business. In 1990 or was it 1991 there was a big flash flood in Ormoc, a lot of people died and business died as well. So you see God has already prepared my grandparents to have a business here in Cebu or all of us in the family would have been so lost financially. We are not rich mind you but we are comfortable compared to most people. Eventually we all grew up here in cebu.

Then my mom met my stepdad who was a martial arts instructor and is just a year older than me. And yes he is a great guy and no I don't mind that he is younger than my mom. After all she has been through she deserves to be happy and John makes her happy so we are all happy for her. It is through John that we met a very good friend of ours Anton. He is an englishman who has a martial arts school in england.He came here to study Escrima (arnis) which is what my stepdad is teaching. It was his first time here and he didn't know anybody but mom felt that he is a good guy so she invited him to our humble home and that was 12 years ago. He has become our benefactor. He has been extremely good to us. Through him we met a lot of wonderful people. Through Anton we met Linda and her kids and they were the one who gifted us with this computer thus paved way for my sister to meet her wonderful husband online. My sister is now a happily married woman with 2 daughters. So you see everything just fell into place.Isn't that just amazing how everything was planned?God really is good.

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